Full Moon April 6. 2012 @ 17 degrees Libra3:19 p.m. EST 12:19 p.m. PST
“The minute I heard my first love story I started looking for you, not knowing how blind that was. Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere. They’re in each other all along.”–Rumi
This article has been reluctant to show up. Is it Mars and Mercury (in Pisces) retrograde?Mercury is the ruler of my Sun Moon conjunction in Gemini. It is not a gentle mist that shrouds my thoughts but a dense fog leaning heavily upon each and every idea that dares to find a toehold on this previously very empty page. With time running out what shall I do?
I’ve decided to write a love letter. That’s okay. The moon after all is in Libra ruled by Venus the goddess we love to love and she sits opposite Aries ruled by Mars the courageous god who dared to love her. The fact that they sit opposite one another is really a mistake because they do spend a lot of time very close together.
There are a number of aspects in this Full Moon chart that suggest a need for letting go of old wounds that are deep and undermine our sense of self worth and contribute to an imbalance in our natures or the obscuration of same. Black Moon Lilith is in Taurus also ruled by Venus (part of human nature has lost its sense of security, stability-manifests in different ways depending on gender) and is in exact aspect (semi sextile) to Venus. The feminine shows up repeatedly in this chart, Juno goddess of marriage and partnership conjuncts the north node and Ceres the Mother is in opposition to Saturn the Father. Mars squares Venus south node conjunction and Juno north node conjunction. And, the one exact aspect to the Sun/Moon is Pallas Athena.
When all is said and done a cool head and maturity, the acceptance of responsibility (Pallas Athena was the protectoress ofAthens) will be our intention or purpose as we see clearly reflected to us the self and other; that they are not separate but really inhabit the same space. Is it an accident that Mars is squaring Venus, the nodes and Juno? How do we get from where we’ve been, Venus in Gemini, many experiences from the past that can either deter us from awakening or assist us in moving toward a less superficial connection to our feelings or heart wherein lies the truth of our relationship issues? Perfect balance. Harmony. And love for self and all things. This is the truth that Sagittarius knows. And Mars in Virgo retrograde stirs the embers of the hearth and remembrance of what is not duality but perfection. And that it dwells within each of us.
See beyond the story. It is not you. Then there will be no attempt at defending one self from imagined injustices. There will be instead a knowing that we are all equal or have the potential to create equally that which we can imagine. This Full Moon sheds light upon our need to become conscious individuals with a divine sense of inner peace and balance and self love that allows us to share the same with all those with whom we come in contact.
I write this letter fully aware of the individual I am with a great sense for the vastness of what is when the individual is no more. There is deep love in this knowing for self and all things as there is no need or desire to corrupt the knowing. There are no memories, now that I have remembered, except of numerous occasions that allow/ed me to give of the self in a way that nurtured smiles reflected back to me and the love of those who, boundaryless, give back without restraint.
Even in madness I see the love you have for me; in angry bursts you declare your love and in silent contemplation, eyes turned heavenward you love me too. And this I return to you. It is all that you and I can do—be a perfect reflection of each other for each other. One day I am sitting gazing out the window and I see that I am looking at the world through your eyes. We couldn’t be any closer, you and I and that has always been so. It benefits me not to decide against you, to strike out against you, to want to control you. These all, are manifestations of the ego desirous of its hold upon a fragile existence which at any given moment may cease to be. If I wake up!
I would rather wrap my self in your love and dance far and away neither hindered by thought nor carried off by illusion both creations of the need to perpetuate an existence that is not. Dancing wrapped in you; vibrating to a rhythm that pervades all existence and brilliant light invading the shallow recesses of an ancient tune; that I am here, in this moment all there is, nothing and everything and wrapped in you.
Our love that travels beyond time and space and story; that is eternal, infinite. How can I ask for more? What more can there be? And what divine good fortune that I now get to share that with you! After years, centuries, millennia of outcast, exhile, torment and tears, of suffering and pain there is only love and I get to share that with you!
There may be more to the story of this Full Moon but I can’t see that right now as really and truly there is only love and we all know that but sometimes we are too stubborn to give it to our selves or we think we don’t deserve it or, or…it is all a story that doesn’t allow for acceptance and appreciation for the gift we have been given here.
At this Full Moon be at peace within. May the genders abide harmoniously and generate a vibration of love that floods the world. May we know the self as love and the individual as the container and disperser of love so that life here aligns with the vision we have had of our selves for a very long time. It is wonderful that every time we look at the moon whether it is full or not the love we have for this and every celestial body shines right back at us. There is no separation, no opposition at all. It is just a thought.
Buddha Laugh 